The Truth

It's important to tell the truth. Am I being untruthful by not telling my mother that my brother is ill? I'm having a dilemma about telling my mother that her son has Parkinson's Disease. My mother has high blood pressure. Very high. I think that if I tell my mother about my brother being ill it will cause her to worry and she could panic. She might even try to go see him. The problem with that is she doesn't know where he lives and he doesn't want her to know where he lives. They have a flawed history and so he has decided to separate himself from her and the rest of the family. He told me he didn't want to know anything about her until she was dead and buried.

One of my sons seems to think I should tell my mother and she has a right to know. He is right but if that causes her too much stress and she has a stroke or heart attack then he is not the one who has to take care of her. I and my husband are taking care of her. It has not been easy when she gets very sick because of her high blood pressure or other health problems. I help her by cooking for her and taking her food. I wash her dishes, help her by shopping for her or when she can walk I take her shopping. I help her with all of her errands. I wash her clothes for her and take them home and sometimes put them away for her. I take her to the doctor,the hospital ER, and for a while physical therapy three times a week. I help her sometimes with her bills. I take her to the bank and out to eat. My son who wants her to know the "truth" calls her on the phone sometimes.

This problem came up before with this son when my mother's brother died. I told my son I would go to her house and tell her in person that her brother had died. He had passed away about midnight and his daughter, my cousin, called me to tell me. I told her I would go and tell my mother in the morning. There was nothing she could do at midnight anyway. She was probably asleep and I thought she needed the sleep more than to feel bad all night. She could face it in the morning. My son called me in the morning and asked if I had told her yet and I told him no, but as soon as I dressed I would go to her house and tell her in person. When I arrived at her house she was on the telephone talking to my son. He had called her to tell her the bad news. I got mad at him and asked him why he had done that. He said she had a right to know. I told him that she is elderly and sick and he should have told her in person and not on the phone. If he had taken the news badly then she could have fallen, had a stroke or something.

Now her right to know is the subject again. But this time she is even sicker than when her brother died. So I called and told my son that I had spoken to a nurse and she said to wait until her doctor says she can be told. Which is true. I had spoken to her nurses supervisor on the phone just before I talked to my son.

My son says I'm trying to be God and control everything. I think he is trying to be God by not considering how hard it would be to hear this bad news. I wonder if my son has some lingering resentment toward my mother that would cause him to not care how it affects her. He says to let God work it out. He thinks God can use this to help her some way. My other son sees it my way.

My brother is ill but he is the one who chose to be away from the family and to not speak to my mother. He has separated himself from her before for seven years. If he doesn't worry about her well being then why should I risk her having a stroke or heart attack just to tell her the truth. What makes his illness more important than hers?

Where does the truth lie?

The Flu or What?

It started out with a dry,scratchy throat and sneezing and each day I coughed more. The cough finally settled in my chest and became very hard and deep. I felt tired and a little dizzy. Not really dizzy but more like my head was stuffed with cotton. I started taking herbs and that helped a lot. I didn't have a fever or aches so I don't think I have the flu.

Today I went to Sandy's Herbs and picked up some herb combinations. One bottle was VS-C and the other was something for lungs. I opened the bottles and took some right away. I am feeling much better. That feeling of cotton in the head is nearly gone.

Now I have to get busy working on a graphic for a local singers Website. I'm working on a butterfly right now for the design.

Must run. Well, not really run but stop typing this and start working on the design.

Affinity

What does God say about us being in agreement with our enemies? It's obvious the president has an affinity with people who are unclean. Unclean in their desire to CONTROL others. Filthy in that they want to be God in the lives of other people. They want to control everything people think and do. Political correctness, hate speech, hate crimes all have their base in "CONTROL" and people not wanting to hear the truth about their sin. Children in our public schools have been taught to be politically correct, not to use hate speech and if someone uses hate speech or hate thought it's a hate crime. Now they believe this is the truth. Our children have been brain washed to believe a lie is the truth. Our children are taught to have their own truth.

There is only one truth. Yes, people see things from a different perspective but that does not make it true. I was reading in my Bible and came across these verses about people of Israel marrying people who did not believe in God. I was struck with how much our nation has become like Israel that was talked about in these verses. We have married people from other nations who do not believe in God. We have tried to make peace with other peoples and nations who couldn't care a fig about our nation or God. We have given our money to nations who are so far from God it is sad. We have given our sons and daughters to fight in wars to help nations who worship allah.

I was against going to war to help a nation who will no doubt end up trying to harm us. That's nuts. The U.S. helped Osama bin Laden in 1979 when the Soviet Union invaded Afghanistan. With U.S. government assistance he helped organize the Arab mujahideen. He started the Maktab al-Khidamat to resist the Soviets. When the Soviets withdrew the Maktab al-Khidamat changed to do jihad in Muslim countries. Now this man the U.S. Government helped has returned our kindness and help with burning to death nearly 3,000 people. Those who didn't want to burn to death jumped to their deaths. What ever happened to the man who planned and carried out attacks on the Twin Towers in New York. He's still planning and breathing.

In 1996, bin Laden issued his first fatwa, that called for U.S. soldiers to leave Saudi Arabia. In 1998 a second fatwā was issued by bin Laden where he outlined his objections to U.S. foreign policy with Israel and our troops continued presence in Saudi Arabia after the Gulf War. Bin Laden used Islamic texts to exhort violent action against U.S. military and citizens until his stated grievances are reversed, noting "ulema have throughout Islamic history unanimously agreed that the jihad is an individual duty if the enemy destroys the Muslim countries."

I think we should consider God's word about not joining with people who are underhanded, vile, and obscene, who treat their women like dogs, who chop the heads off of anyone who is not in agreement with them about their god allah, who really do torture people by breaking bones, beating, starving, stoning, burning and any other vile treatment of human beings. This is "CONTROL" to the max.

God of the Bible does not control people to harm them. He lets people chose what they want to do. He never forces anyone to do anything. In the following segment taken from the Bible it talks about Israel marrying people who are unclean, filthy, vile, and don't know him and worship other gods. It tells us not to have an affinity with these people. It says not to want to make peace with them or want their wealth. Hasn't the U.S. done all of these things? Our leaders have tried to or have made peace with countries who hate us and our God. We have sought their wealth by investing our money in their countries in businesses. We have treaties with people who want our destruction or at least our down fall. Our president has affinity with people who don't have the best interest of our country in mind. How will this play out with God telling us not to do these things? It looks really bad for us.

Ezra 9
10 “Now, our God, what shall we say after this? For we have forsaken Your commandments, 11 which You have commanded by Your servants the prophets, saying, ‘The land which you are entering to possess is an unclean land with the uncleanness of the peoples of the lands, with their abominations which have filled it from end to end and with their impurity. 12 ‘So now do not give your daughters to their sons nor take their daughters to your sons, and never seek their peace or their prosperity, that you may be strong and eat the good things of the land and leave it as an inheritance to your sons forever.’ 13 “After all that has come upon us for our evil deeds and our great guilt, since You our God have requited us less than our iniquities deserve, and have given us an escaped remnant as this, 14 shall we again break Your commandments and intermarry with the peoples who commit these abominations? Would You not be angry with us to the point of destruction, until there is no remnant nor any who escape? 15 “O LORD God of Israel, You are righteous, for we have been left an escaped remnant, as it is this day; behold, we are before You in our guilt, for no one can stand before You because of this.”

The King James Version uses the word filthiness instead of uncleanness. It also uses the word affinity instead of intermarry. I like the word affinity because it can be applied to more than marriage.

Ezra 9
10 "And now, O our God, what shall we say after this? for we have forsaken your commandments, 11 Which you have commanded by your servants the prophets, saying, The land, to which you go to possess it, is an unclean land with the filthiness of the people of the lands, with their abominations, which have filled it from one end to another with their uncleanness. 12 Now therefore give not your daughters to their sons, neither take their daughters to your sons, nor seek their peace or their wealth for ever: that you may be strong, and eat the good of the land, and leave it for an inheritance to your children for ever. 13 And after all that is come on us for our evil deeds, and for our great trespass, seeing that you our God have punished us less than our iniquities deserve, and have given us such deliverance as this; 14 Should we again break your commandments, and join in affinity with the people of these abominations? would not you be angry with us till you had consumed us, so that there should be no remnant nor escaping? 15 O LORD God of Israel, you are righteous: for we remain yet escaped, as it is this day: behold, we are before you in our trespasses: for we cannot stand before you because of this."

Affinity with people who do things that terrorists do is forbidden in the Bible. Reverend Jeremiah Wright and his followers have an affinity with terrorists. I seem to recall him saying that American chickens have come home to roost when he was talking about the attack on September 11, on the Twin Towers, the Pentagon, and the crash in Shanksville in rural Somerset County, Pennsylvania. An affinity with people who would murder thousands of people makes him just as vile. I believe that the people in his congregation who listen to this vile man are in affinity with him. They have joined themselves to this vile, filthy man. By doing so they are just as guilty as those who caused all this destruction of human life.

Now I have to ask myself if I am in any way in affinity with any of these people. Do I buy anything they sell? Do I speak out about their vile, despicable acts? Do I mistake their god for the one true God? I heard our president, President Bush, say something to the effect that their god, allah, and our God, Jehovah, are the same. That is a lie. Did President Bush have an affinity with our enemy? I have to find out if I have an affinity with the enemy in any way.

I know that I had an affinity with my enemy because I had a mortgage with a company that has as one of its stockholders someone who is trying to buy up parts of my country and this person is not our friend. I no longer have my mortgage with this company. My mortgage is now in the hands of an American owned company. I'm trying to change my "Affinity" with the enemy.

Blogger and My Firefox, Opera, Mozilla Browsers

My doctors nurse called and told me the results of my blood test. She said that my total cholesterol is 198mg/dl. Seems high to me. She said it was okay. My HDL or good is 58. Seems low to me. I think it should be 80-90 mg/dl. The bad, LDL, is 70. I don't remember what this should be. My triglycerides were high, 350 mg/dl. That means I need to stop with the sweets. I have been eating far too many Braums Soft Frozen Yogurts lately. Now I have a good reason to tell my mom NO. I don't know if I should tell her why because I'll never hear the end of her telling me what to eat and not to eat. I'm a little old to be having my mom constantly telling me what to eat. S C R E A M!!!
I've read that stress can make the cholesterol high also. Hummmm? I wonder what could be causing the stress? Can't imagine.

Today I have to go to the police firing range so I have to stop now.

I do wish that Blogger and Firefox, Opera, Mozilla Browsers would all just get along. I keep having trouble with Blogger crashing anytime I finish a post and try to 'View the Blog'. My browser crashes. I've used each of the above browsers and they crash. I think it must be a bug within Blogger. There is no way to contact them so I'll just blog about it. Maybe they'll take note and fix things.

Blogger is also not allowing 'Comments' on my blog. I wonder why?

Saving Money On Loans

I went to see my attorney this morning. He checked out my refinance papers and said to go ahead and "do it." My dad told me that if Philip says to jump I need to jump. Whatever he tells me to do, "do it." I paid him $50.00 for his time and his expertise. If I'm not mistaken he said he was the president of the Oklahoma Real Estate Commission. So he knows real estate and contracts. Thank You Mr. Holmes. My other attorney said that he was surprised that Mr. Holmes saw me because he doesn't do much law practice any more. He said it is probably because I have known him for so many years. He was our family attorney for many years. It was wonderful to see him. I always give him a big hug when I see him. I think a lot of him. Since my father died years ago, if I need advise I turn to Philip.
I'll save around $12,000.00 on the refinancing. I wanted to get the loan from a local instead of having it with a giant company that couldn't care less and is having financial troubles itself. We cut our loan term from 18 to 15 years. The rate is two and a half percent lower. The payment is almost the same as before. So if all goes well we will pay our house sooner and cheaper. It is costing us some closing costs but the banks need all the help they can get. We the poor have to sacrifice so they can be richer.
There is a Muslim loan that charges no interest. The bank buys the house and the people pay back the loan without interest. It is only for Muslims. That would be nice if Americans would do this but it won't happen. I found out about this through researching Muslim banking Web sites. This seems to be the best aspect of Muslim faith.

Hero Who Saved A Life Tonight

I went to my monthly bird club meeting today. I always enjoy being with people who like birds as much as I do. They are a very nice group of people. 

I went to see my son and his wife and my grandchildren tonight. My daughter-in-law had gone to buy something to eat and I stayed to visit with my son about his plans for his garden. My daughter-in-law called and told my son that she had found a man on the side of the road and she stopped to ask him if he was okay. I'm sure there must have been something strange that made her think he might need help. He didn't answer her and she got out of her car and asked him if he was okay and he still didn't answer. She said that his arm was limp and he was turning blue. He wasn't breathing and he had no pulse. She did CPR on him and another car came along and stopped to help. They called an ambulance. She said the man had a pulse of 140 when she left. She is an RN and in charge of an oncology unit here in the city. She was a hero tonight. She said it's hard when you come down from an adrenaline rush like that. I hope the man will be alright. I feel very privileged to have such a wonderful daughter-in-law. 

Tweaking Cookie Recipes

I have tweaked my Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookie recipe again. It was better than the last four or five tweaks. Tomorrow I hope to do more tweaking on the recipe. I want to get it so good that it will win MONEY in a contest. I won't give out the recipe until I've entered it in a contest or two. I know it has ingredients that most people don't have in their home. People should start to use other things than white flour and white sugar. Those things have all the nutrients taken out of them.

This last cookie tweak I took samples to my youngest son and his sons, my grandsons, and they liked them. I hope they weren't being kind. I told them to tell me what they thought so I can change the recipe for the better.

I would like to have more time to devote to making my own recipes so I could make my own recipe book with healthier recipes. I have lots of cook books but they call for white flour and white sugar. Every time I eat white flour I end up with a headache and lots of mucus. I have to clear my throat all the time.

One ingredient I use is Buckwheat flour. It has more protein in it than white flour. It is actually good for you. I'll write more about this recipe when I have it tweaked again. This next time I'm changing the amount of the flour. I'm using the same 2 cups but I'm going to use different quantities of the different flours. Fun, fun.

When my husband comes home some days and asks whats for dinner I have to tell him I have no idea. Even though there is something cooking on the stove I have no idea what it's called. Sometimes those are good and sometimes we agree not to try it again.